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15 September 2006 @ 11:56 am
For the record  
I mentioned yesterday that I might have been depressed. Just for the record, I do not mean to imply that I am neuroatypical in the form of a chemical imbalance-induced mental disorder. I meant that I was feeling low, blue, down, unhappy, whatever you want to call it. It is possible that it was related to low blood sugar or it might have been simply a crappy day.

Either way, what I felt? NOTHING compared to real depression. If I'm screwed up in the head, it's my own fault, not my genetics at work. For those of you who live with the real thing, I will not offer pity, as you deserve better than that, and I cannot really offer sympathy as I don't begin to understand what you're feeling. I can only offer respect and a degree of awe.

PS. On an unrelated note, gods damned I love this XM. I'm starting to think it's like Elf's haunted MP3 player.
Current Mood: respectful
Current Music: White Zombie - More Human than Human
Blind Zen Archerbzarcher on September 15th, 2006 07:17 pm (UTC)
Mmm, yes. XM's crack.

If you want a bit lower tempo, try channel 84.
Steve McKnellydenali1 on September 15th, 2006 07:51 pm (UTC)
Thank you. Someone who finally understands.
Traveler Farlandertwfarlan on September 15th, 2006 08:03 pm (UTC)
Took me a while, but I got it.
Steve McKnellydenali1 on September 15th, 2006 08:29 pm (UTC)
I've been a depressive most of my life. It's not something I talk about often because of the sentiments you shared. I don't want pity, I just want an answer.

Several months ago, I lost it. It was one of the worst spirals I've ever suffered. I made a post about it on LJ and asked only those people who could shed some light on it to answer. All others I asked to stay away.

Things have changed and I'm not quite that down. Part of this is learning to roll with it when the medications run into something they can't touch and seeking help if you can't roll with it.